What is this kingdom of  bloodshed?
 who is this gluttonous beggar...sitting high on his feculent throne  
I search for some sign of beauty...a tiny little scrap of Truth.
I turn for a moment and see you there.
Oh You! It's always You.

Who is this person sitting beside me?
the sweet sound coming from the other room?
a familiar tongue. I know it well.
it calls me again and again. 
Again its you. Its always you.


What waits behind this gilded door?
I will knock but will I find?
I am not stuck here with this fear... 
no orphan weeping gently... in some forsaken land
Take my hand now and squeeze it tight...
as you lead me through this haunted forest
I can feel you reaching out for me from the light
Oh Lord, I beg you, please bring me home!

I often wish I could choose between
What is Real, and this unnatural shame-
But if you set me free Oh Lord...
I would have nothing left to claim-

Will this freedom I seek lead me farther away
or call me deeper within?

I want to see your radiant face Oh Lord
and know your divine Love as my own
I'm not ready to go yet Lord
 not ready to fail or fall to the unknown

A child peeks around the corner and smiles at me
but I turn my head and cower with shame
the sharp sword of his youthful innocence 
piercing deep into my armor laden with guilt

hoping to find solace in tommorow
holding on to slivers of the past
I choose not to look...instead I turn away
so I shall not see today


i know it sits waiting patiently
until I inevitably turn again
stepping off the path of least resistance
to face into this moment- where we shall meet again

What is this breeze that cools my skin?
this food that settles my hunger...
what is the whispering in my ear?
gently waking me from my slumber...
what is the voice calling out to me...welcoming me home again?
what are these words...of this beautiful song?
what is the meaning of this place I come from?
 you! It's always you Lord!

what dreams come for you tonight?
what fire burns in your soul?
if we're gonna go there babe- we may as well go all the way
Let us clear a path for those who seek to join

dont you see what's happening here?
can't you feel it deep within
the rain beats down and gathers by the curb
the paper sailboats have begun to sail
as the fairies spin into their magical dance

are you in over your head?
for this is deeper than the individual..deeper than you and I.
will you choose to let it carry you home?
or struggle only to feel yourself drowning in your own filth

you are beautiful-
a beauty  that emanates from the core...never to slip away
you pretend that you've forgotten
just like the letter you never sent and the words you never said
you have no one to blame and nowhere to hide
fade into this dream for there is nowhere else to go

the moment you are waiting for will never come my dear
until the moment you become a stranger unto yourself
stronger than the love you thought you let go
it is only then when you will begin arriving - where you have always been

in the middle of a sleepless night
I will be waiting there
will you come and stand with me
will you give up your seat on this runaway train
no destination on the ticket, but its nowhere you want to be

what dream will come for you tonight?
will you build a tower to the heavens, broken and confounded.
from one hell to another?
or will you listen curiously...and go where your heart wants you to go?
may I be weaved in your dream tonight...

I was dreaming so sweetly...
why did you try to wake me?

I had it all figured out,
nothing new to be done.
so safe. so comfortable.

why did you have to wake me.
gently whispering in my ear.
stroking the feather down the back of my neck

the dream was so real.
i could have stayed there forever and then gone back for more.
the world happening all around me as i lay motionless in time-

oh what a dream. it was perfect, I could have had everything I ever wanted. -
burying my head deeper under the covers - trying to avoid the light that calls for me to come play

as stubborn as I tried to be...
you managed to stir me-
my eyes no longer sealed comfortably shut-
the light has penetrated the darkness
it was all I had ever known

damn you for waking me
I will fight you still
let me sleep! I want to stay here where I feel warm and safe
where I know what comes next.

damn you for taking me away from everything I ever knew
for ruining my precious dream
I will fight to stay here
but it burns inside

a dream I now vaguely remember
a place I once knew so well
a world I can never return to-